Matthew 19:24

Irresistable Revoultion: Living as an Ordinary Radical

2006-07-03T08:44:00.001-07:00

Some quotations from the book..

By Shane Claiborne. Foreword by Jim Wallis

Dedicated to all the hypocrites, cowards and fools.... like me.
May we find the Way, the Truth, and the Life in a world of shortcuts, deceptions and death.

" When Mother Teresa died, I was in an interview with some reporter who asked me if Mother Teresa's spirit will live on. I said, " To be honest, Mother Teresa died a long time ago, when she gave her life to Jesus. The joy and compassion and love that the world finds so magnetic are noly Jesus, that is eternal." I saw that eternal love all over Calcutta. I did indeed see Christ in Mother Teresa, but i also found Christ in the lepers, the children, the destitutes, the workers.

Mother Teresa always said," Calcuttas are everywhere if only we have the eyes to see. Find your Calcutta."

"In the poor we meet Jesus in his most distresssing disguises."
"We can do no great things, but small things with great love"

When we look through the eyes of Jesus, we see new things in people. In the murderers, we see our own hatred. In the addicts we see our own addictions. In the saints we catch glimpses of our own holiness. We can see our own brokenness, our own violence, our own ability to destroy, and we can see our own sacredness, our own capacity to love and forgive. When we realised that we are both wrenched and beautiful, we are freed up to see others the same way...

Your Awesome!

2006-04-21T21:07:00.000-07:00

Got my wallet back!! Woohooo, really want to say a very big thank you!! Thanks Lord, I will work to become a better steward of properities u have entrusted to me... Shall be more careful from now onwards.....

Chun Hong finally came to know God, so excited!! Lolz.... The walk with God is never easy, he promised us trials but also promised his presence be with us at all times. Whenever we face hardship, we can persevere through it WITH HIM! How great is his love, his grace! I almost backslided on 2 occassions a year and half ago, he always showed me that he is so real whenever i doubted him, I used to challenged God,"God, if your real, wun u show me? wun u reveal it to me?" On the 2 occasions i asked that, he answered me with answered prayers, with healing, with persoanl testimonies, with factual evidences..

Draw near to God and he will draw near to you... God loves everyone, even Judas Iscariot. God loves Osama and Saddam.. He love the sinners but hates the sins.. All his creation, all he designed, all he gave unique faces, fingerprints, number of hair in their bodies...

Jesus takes me wheel!!

2006-04-08T21:27:00.000-07:00

Leanne Rimes - I need You
don't need a lot of things
I can get by with nothing
Of all the blessings life can bring
I've always needed something
But I've got all I want
When it comes to loving you
You're my only reason
You're my only truth
I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven's gate
There's a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you
You're the hope that moves me
To courage again
You're the love that rescues me
When the cold winds, rage
And it's so amazing
'Cause that's just how you are
And I can't turn back now
'Cause you've brought me too far
I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven's gate
There's a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you
Oh yes I do
I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven's gate
There's a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you
Oh yes I do
I need you
I need you

days without u are the darkest days of my life. I will never ever forget U pulled me out of the abyss, so its not my life now, its u in me, take my steering wheel, i willingly surrender it to you. I want nothing but to stay in ur presence forever..LORD I NEED YOU!!!!!!!!!

Study Bible!

2006-03-31T09:15:00.000-08:00

Yay, I got my study bible today!

Gonna pay up my camp fees tml, so relieved that i have no outstanding debts now...phew...
Argh!! I must be more disciplined. I took taxi to work today and im fustrated at myself. I am the wicked and lazy servant Jesus was talking about =( I must change, i noe it.. If i can be more disciplined and use my time well, im a huge step closer to being more like Christ, hehe, can imagine that once i really change!

Having the capacity to become more like Jesus makes me excited! hahahaha!

This Courageous brother

2006-03-30T10:41:00.000-08:00

Abdul Rahman, 41, Afghan, convicted of receiving Christ into his life (Ps: its illegal to do so in Afghanistan).. Facing charges that could mean execution. Quoted from Cnn.com, According to an interview published Sunday in an Italian newspaper, Rahman said he is fully aware of his choice and is ready to die for it. "I am serene. I have full awareness of what I have chosen. If I must die, I will die," AP quoted Rahman as telling the Rome daily La Repubblica. "Somebody, a long time ago, did it for all of us," he added in a clear reference to Jesus. Soooo super courageous isnt it! A great testimony of God's amazing grace extending to the children of Ishmael...

Courageous faith.... Rachel of Collumbine High immediately came to my mind. A girl with a simple yet undying faith.. Yes, they are the modern testimonies! It is so apparent that God exist. Answered prayers, millions of testimonies, transformed lives, even science is pointing towards the existent of an intelligent designer, a perfect creator whom we call Father! God!

Its amazing to know that our God not only created us, he loved us! Undying and unconditional love....

Matthew 11:28-30
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and i will give u rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for i am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light

Thank you God, i have found much rest in you! PtL!!

Guess who's back?

2006-03-12T12:38:00.001-08:00

<----- He is so funny!!!! hahahahaz...

Guess who's back, back again? Im back once again! yay!

Life is great, fantabulous brothers in the NYP unit! Thank You everyone, i felt welcomed, looking forward to the camp too..

Lord, thanks for the blessings!
Firstly, for all the gift of friends in my life.. Thank you for a brother and a soul mate like Victor, a friend and a great listener like Xiao Key, a spiritual mentor like Leslie, great brothers like Joseph, Xing Xing, Donovan, Andrew, Wei Hong, Ken, Eilton, Ka Shun, Lester, Zhang Liang, Zarni.. And not forgetting my ever-present classmate like Chuu Jye, Chun Hong, Joe, Ben, Daniel and Leonard... and Tan Tan, Shi jie and Matthew Yong. Some have only a couple of true friends, yet i have so many so many!! Praise the Lord! Ur Wonderful!!!
Secondly, my answered prayers! Prayers like: Lord, i need the bus to come now....! Lord, clear the traffic please...! Lord, keep me awake at work please! Lolz, irritating prayers rite? I think God receives these prayers like 2139870083 times a day perhaps, hahaha..
Thirdly, thanks for everything I've got, from my job to my family, my home, the school im studying in, the country im living in, my standard of living. I want to remind myself now that you chose to bless me with all that, that i have a purpose in this place i must fulfil. I could be someone living in a 3rd world country, living a hard life.. Yet im here.... I have absolutely no excuse for not being thankful... I want to love u back by loving people too, and by fulfilling the destiny of my life. Lord, let me see the connection more clearly!!

I shall use my blog to keep track of all the happenings of my life and how you blessed me!
tats all for today, im off to qt...

Man Utd 2 Newcastle 0

2005-08-28T10:49:00.000-07:00

Great, Manchester united won again, as usual.... lolz... Its a great joy to see the team back at full trottle, with a tinge of masterclass from Rooney. Seriously what great skills and physique God has bestowed to you... But sadly the victory came with a cause, and it is the shattering of one of the best centre back in premiership( in my opinion), Jean Alain Boumsong. He had a horrendous game by his highly standards, two moments of lapse of concentration cause their game. But credit to rooney and ruud too, for their never-say-die behaviour towards the game that clinched the points for us. Its all down to nerves, determination, and of cos, sheer class...lol God bless Manchester United! haha, is tat too superstitious le?

One day every tribe will confess that you are God =)

I stare into the sky of wonderful creation by You! Just heard from my brother, he told me it is possible that God really exist, Im so glad to hear that considering that he is a non-believer =) He was saying, theres 2 dimension, 3 dimension, and a possible 4th, bcus beside the length height and breadth, theres still a time determinant? And he say maybe God created us but we cant see him as he is in the 4th dimension... Dunnoe if that make sense, but hack, at least he is starting to believe in Him.=) I have also found out what a mature brother i have, he told me all he tot about love, surprisingly he thinks so much like me.. yeah i totally agree with him that if you truely love someone, you wld nvr hesitate to compromise, and you wun even have quarrels if both of you really love each other, some quarrels start because of pride, or insisting one is correct, but if you cant even sacrifice for him or her, dun tell me its love.... Im so proud of him man, hope i can say it to him, but thats gonna be paiseh, lolz...a blessed day=)

God have mercy on pple who are faraway from you, soften their hearts please!! I found out that life has improved so much, no more pool days and com games to lighten up my life, thats history. So happy that i have managed to walk out of all the relationship thingy and all the com games and idol worshipping, becuase i have found a pillar of joy and hope, something that i have never experienced before. Nthing beats praising you with all my heart.

Occassionally i would sit down and stone, recalling my history, days b4 i knew him, days after i knew him. Sometimes i wld laugh at myself for all the silly things i have done b4 knowing him, all the days talking and missing my ex, playing cs at lanshops, the days i shouted and swore when things aint going well, days when i worshipped Man united above all, and the hack-care-about-everything attitude that i have. the list goes on, its disgusting though. But after knowing him, my life is revovling around my creator... He opens up new doors for me, I have got such a great job, a bunch of true friends, a brand new relationship, and of cos a new life.. =)

A great service

2005-08-27T11:02:00.000-07:00

Exams over, finally... For the time being at least.

Todays something new, Pastor Ben for service! He really delivered the teaching well, learnt a great deal from such a wonderful man God has blessed to bless us....

God is nearer than we think, he reaches out for us, unafraid of being rejected, there he was when you fumbled, there he was when you were celebrating ur successes. The creator of the universe waiting to know you, me? a nobody like me? Yes, we should feel privilegded!

The happiest moment of my life? That is knowing you, Lord. Come to think of it, the actual day that i converted wasnt that happy for me, it was a step into the unknown, what am i going to do? will i be tied down by church commitments? Full of question marks and worries. But looking back, i never regretted that day, it was the best thing that i did! I think alot of people will think im kinda crazy, i understand how you all felt, i used to think the same too.. But i cant explain why I'm such a happy Christ-follower now! The old has zao-ed, the new has come.. wahaha

Emmanuel

2005-08-18T13:40:00.000-07:00

Holy Holy, i will bow before, My Lord and King, Hallelujah, You have come to us, you make all things new. Emmanuel, Jesus Christ, you'll never let me go, My Shepherd King, your watching over me..Emmanuel... So amazing, you have named the stars, of the deepest night. Still you love me, you have called my name, and i will follow you. Emmanuel, Jesus Christ, you'll never let me go, My Shepherd King, your watching over me..Emmanuel....

I love this song, its a great worship song.

Cant believe i actually look forward to working every wednesday friday and sundays. I've learnt alot since working in Life Bookshop, especailly the songs that i seldom hear, the books that i never read before. Learnt skills such as cashiering, customer service, accounting put into practice. Well, Its part of my learning curve =).

While working on wednesday, i saw several interesting people in the shop, one tat immediately came into my mind is this girl who lingered in the shop for about 2hrs!!?!? Lol, maybe 'linger' isnt the correct word, i certainly thougt so before she brought 3 books altogether. She was racing up and down the corridor of the bookshop, drawing the books out and shelving them back repeatedly, she read through some of them in slight detail, after 2hr of browsing, she seems to have found what she wanted. She's a university student, knew it after she showed her student card for discount, and of the 3 books, there is this particular book that have caught my attention: Single men are like waffles, and women are like spaghetti. Do we look like any kind of waffle? haha, well, its a book about relationship, that's why she's like so paiseh when she's at the counter paying for the books.

After she left the shop, the shop was quiet for quite awhile, no customers...so i was recalling about the book she bought, and went to the 'relationship' shelf to get the browsing copy of it and started to read abit. Didnt manage to read that much though, the book basically teachs us how to expand our social life and how to meet other singles, whate do i do when i am single again, and lots of socialling stuff... Haha, guess its hard to meet the 'chosen one' in life huh? Thats why people come up with books that teaches Christians to effectively end their search for one? I read another book, forgot its title already, the main idea is about how to find the God-given one in our lives... And one laughable thing i came across in the book is: Most every-week-go-to-service girls find that alot of every-week-go-to-service guys are wierd and Sissified, thats how untrue lahz... and they say that some guys seem to have lost something after they followed Christ, and thats their Manliness... and they ( the guys) will stammer and only dare to talk about God and nothing else, because they found it very insecure to talk to girls about any other things. That's prejudice. I found it irritating to hear that some girls told me that there is no gentlemen left in the world, they wld go on like: 50 percent of the guys in world are jerks, the other half are gentlemen, half of these are married the rest are either gays or handicap. It irritated me because, i feel that it's totally unneccessary to involve the handicaps and the homosexauls here... Its rude and insensitive. Secondly, i felt so sorry for my shepherd and the people in church, becuase they are certainly more than a gentlemen, for a gentlemen is merely A well-mannered and considerate man with high standards of proper behavior. However, my church friends are righteous and God loving, People loving group of great friends... They are more than just considerate, they are absolutely fantastic ( well i do agree we have lots of things that we must learn and improve on)! Well i do agree with some part of the book, like love is much about respect, and we should love our other half no more than we love everyone in the world, just that she is the only one who will accompany us throughout our lives, and the one that we are honestly prepared to make a life-long commitment to, i have also learnt that love is a devotion and action not an emotion, we just dun love someone because of the special feelings we have for someone, bcus thats called infatuation, it ends when that someone is not so special to you anymore. Correct me if im wrong. However it seems easier said than done bahz.. it is not difficult to have a crush on someone, but its difficult to wake up from it...

ECP

2005-08-07T19:51:00.000-07:00

Lord im forever grateful! Forever faithful....
Pray it doesnt rain later! we got ecp Matthew party!!

OH THANK YOU!

2005-07-27T07:57:00.000-07:00

Thank God.
Im still alive.

No time to blog for the last 2 weeks, all thz to Projects and Presentations, sian diao. But after monday, all will end. Oh Wanna say a big Thank you, Lord, for all your blessings: everything turns out so well for me. Firstly, my job interview went so well, secondly, i got an A for my Accounting although i made a really silly mistake. Thirdly, Nigel Aidan and Vincent. Forthly, the way my presentation didnt blow up, and lastly, I trashed Matthew in Pool!! muahahaha! Lol, if he see this i will be so dead....

IM fat!!! Now im Bald too

2005-07-10T09:40:00.000-07:00

Soccer Rox our socks lahz....
3 solid hr of soccer today at marine parade with the in-form Victor, how often do you get to experience that?? Haha, all of you are getting more and more powderful everyday, while im deproving lah...haiz... Nvm at least im getting fatter and fatter each day while all of you can never achieve that...muahahaha

CJ group totally rox.
Like duh....

My life is getting more and more interesting each day, i know as long as i stay close to him, he will bless me abundantly, and as he bless me than i can bless my brothers!
Just finished watching End of days, the story is about Satan unleashed upon this world that we are living in and attempts to plainshift Hell onto Earth.. But 1st, he must consumate with the chosen Lady that bears the sign of an 'Omega' on her left hand. So Arnold Schwarzenegger steps in to protect this girl. Seriously i think this movie is too absurd le, how can a mere human fight Satan with an M16? However I realised something after wacthing this movie, that is never ever backslide, which is never walk out of HIS light, never forsake his light, because Satan literally 'backslided'.
I just love all the legendary stuff about how Archangel Michael fought with the nine-headed Dragon using his infamous Flaming sword!! Being an Archangel is so cool!!

Love my life!

2005-07-10T01:00:00.000-07:00

Woohooo!!
My Life ROX!!
Thank God for the everything in my life, my family, my friends, my past time, my present and future, even my problems.. I pray for more problems and obstacles in my life, because there are times i experienced Spiritual drought (dunnoe if thats the right word) and it usually occurs when my life is too smooth-sailing.. When im faced with lots of problems in my life, thats the time when God is so real... Because my prayers are answered, my life and character changed and it will never be the same again. Thank God because you revealed yourself so readily to me, i pray God, that you will work on others life so that one day they too, will believe that you are our mighty Creator.

I told God that i will take good care of my sheeps for him, so that one day they will become leaders that can fulfil the great commission and finally, finally establishing the Kingdom of heaven to present it to you Oh Lord. By faith we shall hit 50 this year end!! AMEN!!!

Back to my earthly life.

Today is saturday.Wow.Its gonna be great!
Everytime i wake up on saturday, it feels as if im going to heaven...lol....maybe too exaggerated le. But i just love saturdays.. Saturdays ROX! YAY!! WEEHEE!
Early in the morning, my lil brother saw this F4 commercial ( F4 as in Fantastic 4 not that Meteor Storm's Flower 4) and was so so attracted by it that he actually bugged my Mom to grant him a visit to the threatre. So my lil bro and i went to town in the afternoon. Can't believe that i bought him to church, because he is such a hyper-active-Zhi-kang-look-alike and is so hyperactive that he endangers anything that he lay his hands on. Heard this interesting phrase from Jasmine as she was preaching :' Plundering Hell, Populating Heaven'. Wow sound so cool!And everything went out smooth.. Thank God he didnt create havoc at Nexus, or else i will be sooo guilty. Went to Starhub after service, and guess what? That lil brother of mine publicly announced to everyone that im a GAY?!?!?! Luckily my friends all know that le...lol jk jk...IM str8.. But U are not ( you know who you are Gayry...lol)
Fantastic Four starts at 630 and after it ended, my lil bro and i went to meet chuu jye and shi jie at comics connection, after that we all went seperate ways, they went home, and i go x-boxing with my lil bro!! We played Wrestlemania21 and he was like bashing the daylight out of me?!?!? No one can understand the feeling of being trashed by a 9 year old, sob sob.

nitez..

Becks?

2005-07-06T09:00:00.000-07:00

David Beckham is in NYP? lol
Saw him ytd, what a tall handsome ex-manchester united player!
All the Gals go gaga over him, i would have if he is still a manchester united player...lol
Btw congrats to him, bcus London won the bid at abt 730pm singapore time. The celebration in England begins now!

CG TMR!!!

2005-07-06T08:02:00.000-07:00

Excited!

Because tmr's the First Caregroup for the CJC group, well done guys, we have come soooo sooooo soooo far... Its so inspiring lahz, we have all grown alot since we met Christ, esp Vic, Ben, Siong Guan, Shi jie, Ben Ho and Tim! You all are just so amazing! Thank God for all of You in my life, without all of you i wouldnt have grown also, all the anointing goes to all of youl!! and of cos, to Jesus too! Will be doing testimony tml, im quite excited now, calm down Paul...
Proverbs 28:17 - As iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another
Let us all grow in Christ! Together!

Haha, to Chuu Jye, so happy that you have asked me your 1st formal question from the bible, hope i cleared your doubts and i will never forget this particular verse , Mark 13:31.

So glad to have known Christ in my life, went through hard times even as i was going to church, had some troubles with repentance and failed numerous time trying to stop the word 'SIN' from entering into my life. But the last few week, esp after the camp, i have grown so much in terms of my maturity in Christ, guess the Camp really helped me alot :) I have so much 'Thank you's to say to you, my Lord, when i was faraway from you, you blessed me, you cured my illnesses and grant me undeserved results in my exams, and you sent Vic and Matt to impact my life with your Gospel, and that was how i came to know you! I know i don't deserve it, i know it. Your amazingly kind to me, i just want to anoint you all my life!

"...Jesus replied," The kingdom of God does not come with your careful observation, nor will people say,'Here it is' or 'There it is'. Because the Kingdom of God is within You" - Luke 17:20-21

Oh what a day!

2005-07-03T04:17:00.000-07:00

Saturday is definitely the best day of the week! Though had my security duty during service, still managed to listened to Shirley's sermon. Its like so inspiring lahz, talking about leading a God-directed life and blessing people as the Lord has blessed us. Oh yahz, and Andrew's testimony was so tear-jerking lahz, i almost cried lah,almost, felt so happy for him. How God has blessed him and his family while he served our Lord with all he've got :) God's Disciples are Blessed!!! I feel so blessed now..
My brothers and sisters in Christ are so good to me... Thank You everyone for being so kind to me. Matt, thank you for being such a great shepherd, quick to encourage and bless us, but so patient when we make mistakes. Im sure my sheepmates will agree too :) We wun stop growing i promise you! To Shuyi and Harry, a very big thank you to you all too! For being such a great rolemodel to me, have lots of respect for you two. THZ!
Had service today till 515pm, and was with Tim and Ben as they counted the offerings and tithings. Have to say that the counting ministry is the best lahz, itz so slack! haha,oops. Straight after counting, we had our dinner and attended Seed meeting, Learnt a great deal at Seed, like how are u going to explain to your new believers about Holy-spirit baptism and more.
Have to go to skool tmr, have to go back to skool life again, how i wish every day is service-day. Nvm, studying is a duty that God has given us and i will gladly obey, Hope my study will glorify you, God. But still, a big sigh...

Late

2005-07-01T13:25:00.000-07:00

Thank God my blog is finally up.

Ytd was probably the most problematic day of my entire life since i converted. My prayer for more problems and opportunities were answered yesterday. Sorry to all of you, who i may have dissapointed, its not in my character to break promises, but sometimes i broke it without intending to. Im sorry my friends, sorry to my project group casue i have let you all down, with Gods grace i know i can change and let my change be the testimony to God's work through my life. Still, im sorry. Really have to buck up on my discipline, its like so irregular... haiz...

Isaiah 55:7 "Let the wicked forsake his way, and the unrighteous man his thoughts: and let him return unto the LORD, and he will have mercy upon him; and to our God, for he will abundantly pardon."

I think im probably getting EVIL, or UNRIGHTEOUS, and i have certainly underestimated some of the sins that i have committed. This time it is about breaking my promise of punctuality, it may seem small, but in fact it is a reflection of my greatest weakness, where the evil and unrighteous satan can exploit in, so i need to repent n change.

Help me Lord..

Sometimes when people (including me) does something wrong, they tend to find small excuses or maybe reasons for their wrong doings. ' I have done my part' was my 'reason' maybe, but through this lesson, i have also learnt not to find excuses and accept the blame, the judgement.
Im not finding anymore excuses anymore, excuses will only make me think that I'm not completely wrong. I told myself, do not attempt to find excuses or reasons next time, for admitting my mistakes can help me grow in my humility.

Yah, so to Daphne, Celene and Alison, and Yun Chiu, Im really sorry, please please forgive me k? I have no excuses, IM sorry.

ah yahz, to Chuu jye, Chun hong, Ben , Joe, Daniel, sorry for being too lame.

Ps: Dear Friends, If you find out that im making excuses, pls slap me to remind me...thz

testing

2005-07-01T11:10:00.000-07:00

Finally, At last! I have created you my dear diary!

Lame -_-"